four weeks later

really? its already been four weeks since my last post?

time certainly whips past you doesn't it?

im sitting here in a bit of a 'cough due to cold' funk. sophia is "helping" over at grama's and i am taking a break from my house chores. or i could just be procrastinating from my house chores. either way i am finally blogging!

lets catch up with where we are at in the process of becoming foster parents shall we?

january 5th - i met with august for our one on one interview.

january 17th - chris met with august for his one on one interview.

january 26th (that would be tonight) - august will do our *last* home study interview! she will also meet with my parents and do a small interview with them to verify that they are in fact normal people and can then be approved for babysitting.

did you hear that? our *last* home study interview!! holy moly.

as for our training at the mcfd we are two weeks behind. the first week back to training was cancelled since the instructor was sick and the second week back was cancelled due to crazy winter weather. hopefully they will do a make-up training session on a weekend and we can get 'er done all at once. we had our first training session of the year last night. so much information. so much heart ache. so much to be excited about. we can not wait to help these children and their families.

we have been busy on the home front getting our house ready. we did the big switcheroo of rooms on chris' christmas break. he is so lucky. a couple days of crazy was rewarded by a lovely and amazing new space for sophia. chris and i are really enjoying having our bedroom downstairs and its all just working out lovely. i cant wait to show you pictures of sophia's new room. it is pretty darn adorable if i do say so myself. also its practical so its a win win.

we have the crib waiting to be set up in the second bedroom. but we can't find the hardware to put it together. so unfortunate. some time in the very near future chris and i will have the pleasure of searching through our storage locker one box at a time looking for a ziploc bag that's marked "crib parts". i remember feeling really organized when i put them away. ha.

ok here is where i am going to get nice and cheesy.

the other night i had a dream that was so real and just what i needed to feel to be reassured. i know it was just a dream but sometimes i think God can work his magic in ways you least expect. i needed this dream to feel as real as it did. i wont get into all the details but basically in my dream i offered a father to help him take care of his daughter while he found help. in the dream he came back to me and said yes could you please help me. when we took her in she was dirty, sad and hopeless. we cared for her and loved her. the father came back and i willingly and gladly returned the girl to him. in my dream while the father carried her away she smiled at me the most beaming and genuine of smiles, she was healthy, happy and glowing. it felt so amazing and rewarding and real. i knew i had helped her and gave her the love and care she was needing but i was able to return her to her father with such delight. something i know that i will find extremely difficult. each child we will care for the main goal is to get them back with their birth families. i want to do this with a happy heart and know that this in the long run is what the child needs. each case will be different and some will be harder than others. there is so much beyond our control. i just want the wisdom to deal with each child in the best way possible. i also want to see and try to understand the birth families side and try and wrap my head around why they did or do the things they do. that is no small feat for any human but i really want the compassion to understand.

anyways that is just a drop in the bucket as to what i am feeling. there is so much depth to what fostering is. its the beginning of our journey and i am so confident that this is exactly where and what we are meant to be doing.

can i get an amen?